Grandma Lau

Some thoughts

1. Now that I’m out of my little world with the boys, I see how I was probably perceived as a freshmen last year. I think how they function is different from last year, but it’s quite similar. This leads me to think: Am I really one of Eric’s good friends? Or am I just one of them? I’d like to think it’s the first because he told me about his private blog, but even then it’s like….hm.
2. I’m finally hanging out with Eric tomorrow. We’re going to have lunch together, and this is exciting since we see each other often but we don’t actually hang out. I’m slightly nervous because I’m afraid we might have things to talk about. I find that I hesitate more to tell him things now.
3. I am no longer my big’s only little anymore. I don’t really mind, but Brandon always makes fun of me for not being the only little anymore and that just puts me in a downer mood. 
4. I always turn their invites down to hang out, but I hope they don’t stop asking me to hang out with them. It’s the thought that counts, right?
5. Roommate miscommunication and problems are still lingering. I don’t know what’s going to happen with housing next year :/ I don’t want anyone to be hurt, but it looks like someone will be. 
6. I have two more chances to boost my physics grade from an F to passing. Sigh.
7. I’m starting to tell myself that I need to live my life to its fullest. I should stop being so nostalgic and move on with my freakin’ life! Cherish what I do have.

This is my mini update to you girls. I privated my blog to you two only too. I was thinking that we should have a collab blog where we update each other on life! like random daily things and what not. haha but I guess this works too. 

Hello,

I miss you girls!!

Love, Tiff

Fall Quarter

has been rough on us :[ We just need to keep our heads up and do our best.

Sigh.

Success.

snakeplant:

chemical imbalances in my body because of the crap I eat.

self esteem issues because of how badly I’m doing in school and my lack of motivation.

feeling ugly and unwanted.

cranky and mean.

i need my head on straight.

the world isn’t waiting for me.

but i keep putting it all on hold.

when did I become so negative when I tried so hard to be positive, zen and confident in the idea that everything will work out the way it’s meant to?

If I want success.  I am going to have to want it as much as I want to breathe after being under water for a minute.  I’m going to have to lose sleep.  I’m going to have to forget to eat because I am working for it.  I’m going to have to start now.

I’m motivate now too. If I’m going to be successful I’m going to have to give up going out. Actually, I’ve given up going out a lot already. I’m going to have to start being studious. No more dilly-dallying or procrastination. It just bites you back in the ass. I’m going to have to learn time management.

Sigh, still unmotivated but motivated at the same time. I just need to act on it. Now.

Bahhhh!!!

I’m tired

of being the single one in my apartment. Or maybe I just need a day to relax. That works too.

I don’t want to study.    -.-

I really need to

1. Study for physics and micro
2. Study for sociology

I realized I barely studied this quarter just like last quarter. Look what happened then. And the thing is that I’m not even out a lot this quarter… whattheheck.

I wanted to go out this weekend since it’s Halloween, but there’s just too much to much to do and no time to study, so I’ll have to squeeze in every free time I have to study for my midterms.

Rain check

No hang out today :(

Grilled Cheese

I’m excited, but nervous at the same time. But I always get nervous when I have a one-one hang out with somebody other than you girls. What am I supposed to talk to him about…

And Kelly won’t be home either. Poop. 

But I’m still excited because we haven’t hung out in forever. CSA events don’t count. We don’t get to talk. During CSA things we become board members, but when we actually get to hang out we become friends.

Ah why am I excited for this hang out? That was more of a rhetorical question. Poop.

Noo!

I think I’m starting to get sick. Great.